Tuesday, October 12, 2004

INTRODUCTION

I named this blog Strawberry Fields because I had read that John Lennon wrote the song at a time of chaotic change in his life and at a time when he felt he did not connect with his contemporaries. I don’t know if that’s true, but I instantly related because the same could be said of my current state. In many ways, I feel like I am in between two worlds and I don’t belong to either of them.

I am an army wife and I live on a military base. I am also college educated and have maintained my career, which apparently makes me a bit of a freak here. Some army wives said they were scared to talk to me at first because I had a degree. On the other side, many of my friends outside the military think I am crazy to live here and beg me to return to big city life, which fits my cosmopolitan personality. They think it is beneath me to live on an army base.

So Strawberry Fields is where I am at now.

My husband, a sergeant in the infantry, is in his second deployment to Iraq. It’s strange and surreal to be forced to confront the possibility of the love of your life’s death on a constant basis. And it’s those kinds of topics that I wanted to write about.

I started this blog because my head is overflowing with thoughts about what is going on in my life and what is going on in today’s world. Writing has always been a way for me to sort out the jumble in my head. I also wanted to provide a woman’s perspective on traditionally male topics, such as war and the military. There are so many things that I never knew about the military before my husband joined the army. And I admit that I had a very stereotypical view of what a soldier was like, where he came from, what he thought. As with most things, I have found the reality is more complicated than that.

I am remaining anonymous because I want to be free to speak my mind, without having to worry about my husband getting in trouble or my views affecting my career. I know that may sound like a cop out and perhaps when my husband returns home, I will be able to be more open.

I hope you will find the entries here to be thoughtful, poignant and informative. Most of all, I hope it will provoke conversations on what this world and our lives are all about.